I’m Done With School, but…
Apparently this is a week of firsts for me. If you missed it – I presented my first guest post on Coach Daddy. That was fun, I got a great response and so far no one I wrote about has read it. I didn’t name names but I did get pretty specific. Then again, if you behave poorly aren’t you asking for someone to comment on the spectacle?
I also had my first guest post by, you probably guessed it, Coach Daddy. His post about How to Raise Competitive Girls is fantastic. He has a great style of writing and he nails it talking about the fine line between being competitive and being mean.
Today, to complete my week of stepping out of my comfort zone I’m linking up to Finish the Sentence Friday.
If you haven’t heard of Finish the Sentence Friday it’s a link-up hosted by Janine from Confessions of a Mommyaholic, Stephanie from Mommy for Real, Kristi from Finding Ninee and Kate from Can I Get Another Bottle of Whine.
This week’s prompt is I’m done with school, but…
I have a lot of answers to this:
I’m done with school, but I keep signing up to take classes through various websites so I feel like I always have homework hanging over my head.
I’m done with school, but it still controls my life through my kids and I hate it.
I’m done with school, but I still love snow days, probably more than my kids do.
I’m done with school, but I’m not sure I graduated.
Yeah. I said that. And it was sadly true up until about a year ago.
When I was working in Charlotte there was a small group of us standing around in the office talking about random stuff, stuff so inconsequential that I don’t remember the specifics but it was about college and things we’d done and classes we’d taken. It was all fun and laughter until one of my friends said, “You didn’t even graduate from college, did you?” He used a very accusatory and certain tone. He was being funny – kind of. I immediately said, “Of course I did.”
I immediately thought, “Didnâ€™t I?”
His tone made me doubt myself. I knew I had graduated even if I didn’t attend the ceremony. I was sure I had. The questions started though…
Did I pass Problem Seminar? The nightmare class I kept dropping and re-taking.
Did I ever actually see a diploma?
Did I ever receive anything from school telling me I had finished?
I suddenly couldn’t remember.
This panic and self-doubt started in 1997. And because I’m a procrastinator and really didn’t want to find out if I was, in fact, one class short, I buried the doubt.
Those questions have haunted me for over fifteen years. I’ve had nightmares about them. My professor for the one class that kept holding me back had long since passed. What if he didn’t actually turn in my grade? What if I didn’t actually have a math degree?
I’ll be honest. I knew how much I didn’t want to be in college when I was there. I was a smart student but not a good student. I wasted a lot of time and a lot of money on classes I didn’t enjoy and trying to figure out what I should be doing. Knowing how I felt on the inside led me to seriously doubt that I ever did follow through with everything I needed to get done and finish my degree.
So fast-forward to 2012. I’m considering maybe becoming a math teacher or tutor. It’s just an idea but I realize I’m going to need a transcript. And a diploma.
So I finally bite the bullet and call the school. I have knots in my stomach as I introduce myself and tell the woman helping me that I need transcripts and what’s the process, etc. After she kindly explains all of the necessary details she asks, “Is there anything else I can help you with?”
“Um, yes. I, well, I’m not sure exactly how to say this but, I guess, I just, I don’t know. I guess what I really need to know is – can you tell me if I actually graduated? That’s awful, right? I mean I just don’t know. I moved away right after my last class and I’m not sure I ever got my diploma. So, I know it’s a weird question but I just don’t know for sure.”
She laughed and didn’t miss a beat.
“That’s not weird at all. I get that question all the time.”
“Yes, almost every week.”
Much to my relief, I wasn’t the only one with a sketchy college background and yes, I am indeed a college graduate.
How would you have answered?Â I’m done with school, but… I’d love to hear it. Please share your thoughts in the comments below and check out some of the other stories on any of the link-up hosts pages above.